La Mirada #16-Wraith

-self portrait, photo-

Bad news: My Thyrogen test shows that my thyroid cancer marker went up-they say I'm in the group of people for whom 1 radioactive iodine treatment after thyroidectomy does not get all the bad guys. Still, since my ultrasound was clear and my marker-values stay okay while suppressed, they will wait&see what happens ... So, I'm in the 'wait&see' mode from now on. There's something there, my blood says so, though we can't locate it (yet?) ...

September is Thyroid Cancer Awareness Month. I'm painfully aware again myself. But I also know it's important to spread the word. Next week, I'm doing a special post for the Dear Thyroid Blog Tour joining in to raise awareness. Dear Thyroid is a thyroid literary support site. It's written by thyroid patients, for thyroid patients. They invite patients with all kinds of thyroid ailments to write a letter to their thyroid as a way of healing and coping and releasing fear and irritation and other upsetting emotions.

Last night while I lay awake, I felt one bubbling up:

Dear Thyroid,

I was very sorry to hear yesterday that we did not completely eradicate you by excising you and bombarding you with radioactive iodine of 100mCurie.
As a young girl, I admired Mme Curie a lot, so I imagined she'd be a great ally while we were trying to nuke you out of my system. On the other hand and in some distorted way, it all makes sense. You're a part of me. You're feisty.
Still, I wouldn't get too confident if I were you.
Don't even think for one second that you got it made -wherever you are.

I'm way bigger than you.
And I'm a hell of a lot feistier!

Regards,
Ria